thank you to everyone...
Submitted by kibby5 on September 11, 2013 - 7:07amjust want to say thanks to everyone for their kind words when kibby passed away a couple of weeks ago. its all starting to hit me again.. I am so sad and I miss her sooo much... I have never had a dog pass away so suddenly, all my dogs have died of old age, so I was kinda more prepared for those. I feel like there must have been some mistake or something.. like maybe the emergency vet dr.'s made mistake and they were trying to cover it up or something. I never saw an xray that showed anything in her tummy? first they said it was her pneumonia, then they called me back 20 mins later and said it was cancer, then when they were putting her to sleep it took them like 6 tries and they still couldn't do it. I had to leave. I couldn't watch anymore. by the time I got to say goodbye to her, she was already all cold, and drugged up, she didn't even know we were there. I don't believe it was her time yet, she was only 9.
I find myself looking for a new dog for copper, but all I keep looking for is another kibby.. and I know that's not possible. I know it will take time.. it just really sucks right now. thanks for letting me vent, sorry if I sound like a crazy person.. its like bully withdrawal or something!
do all bullys really have this super sweet personality? like I have had all kinds of dogs before and I really do believe that bullys are different ( I never had a dog so attached to me, who would run from poo, love her toys so much, nomnomnom things, be so mellow, not care about anyone or any other dog, but love to snuggle- are these bully traits?), or was it kibby who was just different? should I get another bully? or will I be disappointed because it wont be similar to 'kibby'? I dunno... cant sleep and just thinking out loud...
sincerely, christine
your feelings are very real...............
I understand exactly how you are feeling. You piece together what happened and beat yourself up, but in the end the result is always the same. It doesn't do any good to beat yourself up. You did everything YOU could to save her. I know you will replay that awful time in your mind over and over again, but eventually that should stop, and you will remember all the joyous times you had with her. I also know the feeling of having to replace Kibby right now....and I mean RIGHT NOW! You will never replace Kibby, but I will tell you that I think Bullies are very special...and unlike other dogs. I have had other dogs and never felt so strongly about a breed as I do about bulldogs.....and I really loved my other dogs. There is just something so different in their personalities. I have considered getting another dog (non bully) and I just keep coming back to the breed. It's in my blood! You do need to allow yourself some time, as I have told myself everyday for six weeks. I do hope you feel a little better very soon!
Im so sorry you are going through this
I cannot even imagine the day when Gracie will leave us. It's too hard to even think about. You asked about bulldogs and their traits. Well, I have only owned bulldogs so I can't speak for other breeds but the bulldog is the most amazing wonderful sweetest breed. Exactly what you said about Kibby is exactly how Gracie is. I was just talking to my co-workers this morning about this and how very lucky I am to have her as a pet. It makes it that much harder when you lose a loving bulldog like Kibby. You know there will never be another Kibby but Im sure you will find another bulldog that will warm your heart as much as she did.
((( hugs )))you are NOT crazy, just grieving, and that is OKAY
Don't be so hard on yourself, sweetie!!!!!!! The whole ER experience sounds horrible, which is only adding
to your pain---I am SO sorry all of that happened!!! I'm sure I would be falling apart (i.e.---crying and not sleeping
just as you said) for a while....
we all grieve/mourn differently. I don't know how to answer the BULLY questions, because Meaty and
Sophie are our first.....but I DO have a feeling that there is something different about BULLIES that makes them
extra special......and makes other doggie owners NOT understand sometimes--- (hee hee)...
....
HUGS, and more hugs!!!!!!!
Our sweet Archimedes "MEATY" Bones (or as we say...boneSHHH!) ---born 11/28/08---- our first bullllyyyy!!!
And SOPHIE Bubbles *Rapscallion* (LOL!) ---born 4/3/11----our second bulllllyyyy!!!!
(((hugs))),having gone
(((hugs))),having gone through it myself...take your time sweetie,you'll know when you'll be ready...none will be a replacement