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It has been five

weeks since I lost my best buddy Angus and i still have a hard time getting by every day. I am sorry to keep logging on with the same topic but I just need someone to talk to. I cry every day and feel so lonely without my baby Angus and I don't know what else to do , I dream about him and wake up in the middle of the night crying because the dreams I have of him seem so real. My wife tries to console me and comfort me through these times but the pain i feel is just so much. I went to town yesterday to see if I could buy a new buddy to fill my void but just can't seem to do it, I am afraid of losing again ,something I don't want to have to go through again. I don't think that there will be anything to replace what i have lost. I just don't think anyone will ever understand the special bond me and Angus shared in our time together. These partners are here to protect us and to keep us happy and keep us company throughout there life, which is there job the way i see it , but yet we are the ones who take them in to get put to sleep when it's the last resort. The way i feel is who is showing their loyalty at that very moment. He was always loyal and protective of me , and only if you could have seen that part of Angus, not in an aggressive way, but in a way that you knew he was looking out for you. God I miss him so much and wish I could hold him just one more time and feel his kisses on my face. I will go for now , take the opportunity each and every day to hold your bullys and tell them you love them. God Bless ! 

It is very hard............

to lose your baby that you loved so very much.  I have known that heartache as well.  My first dog that I had as an adult I had to put down when he was 14 and it was the hardest thing I have ever done.  I swore I would never have another dog, as my heart could not take the pain of going through that again.  I waited 15 yrs before I got another dog, and when I look back, I cannot figure out why I waited so long.  The joy my bulldogs bring me FAR outways the pain of dealing with them getting older, and then losing them.  I lost my oldest bulldog a  year and a half ago and my heart broke, but the life of love he gave me stays with me forever, and my heart needed to open for another dog in my life.  Seven months later,  very unexpectedly, a 10 mo. old little bulldog needed a home (she was an owner surrender) and my heart told me she needed me as much as I needed her.  Listen to your heart and open it up to possibilites.  Do not focus on the hurt of losing in the future, because the love and joy you will find in the present is all that you will need.  I just know there is some little buddy out there waiting for you!  Open your heart!  You did it once before and you can do it again!  Hang in there. 

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  Miss you sweet boy Otie (July 29, 2013)

 

 

I know the loss that you are feeling.

Sounds to me you have alot of love to give to another dog, not necessarily a bulldog.  You know you will never replace Angus or forget him, but you can start creating new memories with another dog.  When we lost our beloved Sadie after 13 1/2 yrs. I was so very sad.  I will never ever forget or replace her.  I have her ashes and her photos all over the house.  A week later,  I went to our local shelter and adopted a dog.  Sammie is a mix (they say lab/australian shepherd not so sure about that) I think of it as those dogs in the shelter do not have a choice and many of them would just like a warm bed, and a loving family.  The return that is given is unbelievable.  Each passing day will get a little better.  When you are ready you will know it and the perfect match will come along.

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I saw this and it brought tears to my eyes

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Stephanie and David's picture

You are not alone

You are not alone in feeling such a loss. We understand your bond with your bulldog. Ae there any pet loss groups near you. They might be a way for you to change from mourning to having good memories. If you can, let your dog come to you in dreams and let him tell you how he's OK and is waiting for you. My thoughts are with you until then.

karonelaine's picture

I'm sorry you are feeling this way

Only way you are going to get over Angus is to get another dog. Maybe Angus is trying to tell you this. You need to open your heart up and let  another Dog come in. You have the Love to give and sounds like you are not going to stop your depresstion in till you fill that spot. I know it's Hard lossing the one you love the most. But I really think Angus is telling you he does not want to see you unhappy and crying. You are welcome to share your feeling here that is what I always love about this group. Sharing stories and pictures of Angus is awesome. I think it's time you open your home and heart up to another dog. With Bulldogs God picks and we are his keeper of his special babies in till he call them home. I really hope you get another Bulldog.

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Karonelaine

Maggie Porkchop and Bubba's picture

I know your pain

I had to have our wonderful boy put down this past June due to cancer. We was 9 years old. Bubba brought so much love and laughter into our lives. Perhaps I should be  ashamed to say this but I cried more for his passing then I did when my parents died. Bubba was a member of our family...not "just a dog". Now we know we will be facing the same situation with our girl Porkchop. She is going to be 11 and has severe arthritis of her lower back and right hip. She still eats well, plays occassionally and pain is very well controlled with medication. As long as those indicators of quality of life remain I'll carry all 54 pounds of her around if she shouldn't be able to walk any longer. In reality her time is limited but I can't think about losing my other furry child this quickly after Bubba's death. 

Please try to remember our holding them as they are helped to leave their pain is the last bit of true love we can offer. I hope you find peace.

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Maggie Porkchop and Bubba

ArchimedesMommy's picture

Please don't apologize for posting about this....we all

understand and WANT to give you support !!!!   We have NOT been through this; however, I can totalllllly empathise with 

what every day must be like!  I am SO, SO sorry.....I wish I could take that sadness away!!! ((( HUGS ))))

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Our sweet Archimedes "MEATY" Bones (or as we say...boneSHHH!)    ---born 11/28/08---- our first bullllyyyy!!!

And  SOPHIE  Bubbles *Rapscallion*   (LOL!) ---born 4/3/11----our second bulllllyyyy!!!!  

MacknTeaBoneTillieMae's picture

so very sorry for your pain....

i don't know your circumstances, but some times saying good bye by letting them go is best because we are their guardians. let your self feel, and know that one day those memories will bring you smiles of the JOY you shared together. we are so fortunate to be a part of these bullies' lives. hang in there and hang with us because we are here and know.........

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Mack 'n' Tillie Mae Mack

 

 

attitude is altitude!