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Goodbye Rebel

Well, the day that has kept me awake and struck fear in my heart has come. Today was our baby boy Rebel's last day on Earth. Goodbye my sweet boy. I wish I was better with words and could capture all you meant to us and what you brought to our life. We were babies when we brought you home; a new marriage and a new puppy. You taught us patience, discipline, and sacrifice. You kept me company those long, lonely nights when a young cop was on duty and a new bride was scared in a strange house. You let me cry into your side and you laid your head on my shoulder when I came home crying from my job as a new nurse.

You were crazy!!! Jumping, racing, playing; even biting at my kneecaps when I emptied the dishwasher. Then one day, the crazy came in bursts and you were a 55 pound lap dog. Who loved to be held in a cradle position like a baby, who knew how to give a kiss, and who was surprised by his own farts.

When Dixie came along, you were a perfect big brother. When we almost lost her, you fed her from your mouth, and walked along her side for support as she learned to walk all over again. You have been a patient and loving brother.

Everyone who knows you says there is something different about you. We know what it is; you aren't just a dog. You have a person's soul. Dixie is our dog; you were our child.

Things you loved: blankets, blankets, blankets, ice, your stocking, your Nyla bone keys, going on a walk, the vet, the arm of the couch, peanut butter, and your dad's pulled pork. You loved to snuggle, to lay in the sun in the spring and fall, and to celebrate with a run around the house after a poop.

Goodbye to our Rebel, our boy, our mountain lion, our billy goat, our pebbles, our bear, our grumpy old man. Goodbye to our friend and our companion. We will be lonely without you.

Thank you for defying the odds and giving us 203 days after they told us you had 8-88 days. You knew we needed that long to say goodbye; to try and re-frame our world, one that doesn't include a little bully whose whole body wags when we come home. You knew I had to complete that milestone for school and that my grief would paralyze me if you left before then. It's been 10 1/2 years. We're older now, more mature. I'm used to being alone at night and I did get the hang of that nursing thing after all. We'll be ok. We'll love another bulldog I'm sure, but you'll always be our first love. That's a special thing and an honor you deserve. Rest in peace our sweet boy, and know you gave all you had to life. I hope we gave you a good life and that you knew how much you were loved. In fact, if love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.

Thank you to all on this board for your support throughout our journey.

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SuseLulu's picture

What a wonderful tribute

Please take my deepest condolences. He was a sweetheart and so handsome. Heaven has a new star. And I'm sure he has had the best home a bully could ask for!

Bye Rebel! Suse & Lulu/Germany

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CathyandZimmer's picture

I'm so sorry to read this...

that is a wonderful tribute to a very special boy. My heart breaks for you, I hope the memories you have of him help you through this difficult time. Rest in peace sweet boy, you will be missed by many.

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Cathy & Zimmer

www.midatlanticbulldogrescue.com

 

 

AmyandSophia's picture

My deepest condolences on the loss of Rebel.

My heart goes out to you and your husband. 

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Amy and Sophia

I am

sitting at my desk at work crying right now... how beautiful that was! and was he! so sorry for your loss!
You sound like a Great Bully Mommy!!!!

with tears in my eyes................

Wow, you really captured the essence of Rebel.  Having lost my bully this summer, I have MANY of those same feelings and I know how therapeutic it was to have written this.  What a wonderful tribute and way to express your thoughts and say goodbye.  My Otie was my first bulldog love and will never be forgotten, but life goes on, and joy and love come in other ways.  All we can do is totally be thankful for the joy Otie and Rebel gave us.  Our hearts are missing a piece but we are much richer for it.  So, so, sorry for your loss.

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  Miss you sweet boy Otie (July 29, 2013)

 

 

Emma's picture

good bye Rebel

with love and tears....Emma

Katie and Tucker's picture

RIP Rebel

You were loved so much. RIP and run free with all of your new friends. 

All of the best to your family, xo 

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Katie & Tucker a.k.a "Porkchop"

I am so sorry.

My heart mourns with yours this morning. xoxox

carmiesmommy's picture

Sincere Condolences

Such beautiful and heartfelt words. Rebel is watching over you now with a big smile on his face!

Monica-Maude-Gus's picture

I am so sorry about Rebel

After reading through my tears your beautiful, loving words about your boy, I can only say that all of us (four leggers and two leggers) would be extremely fortunate to be as loved and loving as your Rebel. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Monica, Maude and Gus

RIP Rebel.. Sounds like you left one huge footprint on your

families heart.  Bless yiou sweet boy.

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Deborah and the NC gang's picture

i am so very sorry~~~what a beautiful tribute

Sams74's picture

So sorry for your loss

Great tribute...sounds like he had a wonderful life.  I'm sorry it was cut short. 

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Stephanie and David's picture

A special being...

Thank you for sharing this wonderful story. He was, a deep soul and you were luck to have him for even the short time he was on theis planet. But he was lucky to have you. Not everyone would recognize and appreciate his special place in your lives. I will be thinking of you and of him.

Pegsy's picture

I am so sorry for your

I am so sorry for your loss...(((hugs)))

Beautiful Tribute - Gizmo and Hershey send love

I'm more lurker anymore, but I had to say something to this tribute.... beautifully written..

Rick and Dottie

Human Companions to Gizmo and Hershey

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karonelaine's picture

I am so so sorry.

I understand the loss you feel. I loss my Gummybear this summer. I still miss him everyday. I remember Rebal such a Beautiful Boy. I'm praying for you and your hubby. Again I'm so sorry. Now he with all the other bullies that is on Bulldogs world. 

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amandalee27's picture

Thank you

Thank you for all your kind words. We have spent the weekend remembering Rebel and snuggling with our Basset, Dixie.

Céline and Angel Stella's picture

I'm so very sorry

He was a wonderful boy and brought you so much joy. I'm truly sorry for your loss... but happy you got to share such a special love.

ArchimedesMommy's picture

Many, many (((( hugs ))))!!! What a sweet boy Rebel was....

so very sorry he's gone!!!!  ((( hugs ))))

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Our sweet Archimedes "MEATY" Bones (or as we say...boneSHHH!)    ---born 11/28/08---- our first bullllyyyy!!!

And  SOPHIE  Bubbles *Rapscallion*   (LOL!) ---born 4/3/11----our second bulllllyyyy!!!!  

Sophie's very first day home with us....awwww........May 2011.......tooo sweet for words!!!

MacknTeaBoneTillieMae's picture

God's speed rebel!!

so handsome, so much love............hugs to you and your fmily.

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Mack 'n' Tillie Mae Mack

 

 

attitude is altitude!

 

 

HANK-DA-TANK and GEORGIA's picture

Sorry for your loss.

I really enjoyed reading your goodbye letter.  With due time I hope the pain will go away quickly but I can see Rebel will forever be in your heart and thoughts.   Sorry for your loss.  Have a great Thanksgiving.

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Tim and Forever Doyle's picture

RIP Rebel

You obviously have left you mark in this world and will never be forgotten.

bouncer's picture

So Sorry

I read with great regret your loss but I also know the enjoyment he brought you over the years...its amazing how these bulies steal our hearts forever and the love they show us... that's what makes it so very hard to say goodbye..but I know you have memories to get you through the loss so remember him with a smile  and yes let the tear fall...thank you so much for sharing the love you had for him with all of us.

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Bouncer