Well the day is official, this Sunday My wife and I will be taking Lola to Bullies2therescue, we are very fortunate to have them offer to meet us and take Lola in.. we know she presents some problems with re-homing due to her biting my son but they are positive about her future and they also offer long term fostering if in fact she is deemed not adopable.. I however feel Lola's issue results in her dominance over my wife.. since my son was bit I have had lola in public places and she hasnt shown any issues.. removing her from my wife will result in a better behaved Lola.. I got her when she was 8 weeks old and she has been the closest thing to me.. we rehabbed her through 3 knee surgeries which made my bond with her so much stronger. She and I have tons of memories that will last a life time. This is not the ending I had hoped for and I will miss her more than I thought possible.. I feel like I am being robbed out of so many more memories but Lola is just not comfortable around my son.. she should not have to live her life penned up or nervous, she should not feel like she has to constantly be on guard of my wife.. I take comfort in the fact that this rescue will give her possibly a better life than I did.. no one will love her as I do but sometimes the grass may be greener on the other side..
I hope the transition this Sunday goes well and look forward to seeing how it turns out.. I am grateful my son is ok and I have another baby coming so I am sure when my life gets as chaotic as it can be I will know this was the right decision but there will be many lonely rough days ahead.. there will always be things in my life that I see that will make me think of her.. silly things like 5 gallon buckets and how much she loves them.. vacuming the house will not be as eventful and coming home from work will be tough.. everyone keeps telling me things in life happen for a reason.. I would be lying if I said I was content with that... I am still confused and trying to understand how I can fully invest all my energy,time, money and heart into somethign and have it turn out this way.. on the other side I know others have it worse than me and I should be grateful for 6 years of joy.. as many of you have had far less than that.. thanks for everyone who has wished me well and commented on my story.. I was never once judged or looked down on when I shared my story.. I will be lurking on here and enjoying your bully stories and pictures and maybe who ever ends up with Lola will end up back on here..