The oncologist called today and it was the worst news. It is hemangiosarcoma of the spleen or liver or both. This diagnosis has an extremely poor prognosis. Even with surgery to remove the tumor and associated organ (or parts of the organ) and aggressive chemo the average life span after diagnosis is just six months. I have been doing fairly well the last few days, but this news has just broken me. The oncologist suggests surgery, but she is not confident he will even make it through the operation. I have done my own research over the weekend and found all she said about the poor prognosis to be true.
I would prefer my baby have 30 good days rather than 180 sick days. Of course, that is if I knew the future. Part of me keeps asking what if? What if Rebel is the exception and he lives 2 more years? He is special in so many ways, why not this way?
Rebel is feeling pretty good. Just one incident of fever this weekend that slowed him down for a few hours. Often I watch him and wonder if he could really be dying; but I know this is dangerous thinking.
Send good thoughts and prayers our way. Pray we will be able to make the best decision for our baby. Pray we can be at peace with whatever we decide. Pray Rebel leaves this world happy, peacefully, and pain free. Pray his sister, a basset who was very sick as a puppy (Rebel chewed her food and leaned against her side to support her when she walked) will also find peace and happiness after his passing. Pray for our peace and happiness after he passes as well.