My name is sam and i own a 4 year old Bull dog :) he is the apple of my eye. When i see him its so crazy as i can feel the love fill up in my heart when im around him and i know he feels just the same. He sits with me everychance he gets. He is mine i know him and i know how much we love each other both. Im a big horse person aswell and have loved horses my whole life, but my Bull dog is first in my life. My horse and bull dog are my everything.
Anyways we also owned a small little black Maltese poodle, who is the most gorgeous loving dog i have ever known. If she is not in your lap and leanging against your for a cuddle, she is not happy. she loved to be loved and loves to give love back like i have never known another dog to love like that.When we got our bull dog as a puppy, we already had a maltese, so they have grown up together. Always friends, always running around together, always playing. Infact the boss out of the 2 was the maltese. My bull dog always allowed her to be first for everything and never ever tried a think with her. We had her snipped long before we ever got our Bull dog. So we decided that not snipping our bull dog was ok and never thought about it again. We wanted to allow him to breed at least once, but have never gotten around to doing it. So we just left it and carried on with everyday life. never thinking anything about it.............. Unil the other day when we feed our dogs (as we always do, everyday exactly the same) but todday was different. My bull dog turned on my little bull dog and landed up killing her. Im heart broken, i cant even begin to say how heart broken i am. Obviously for the most important reason that my baby is now gone and i pray to God that she felt no pain in the horrifc accident that happened and aswell that i feel so betrayed by my bulldog. i feel like imnot looking at him the same. Im heartbroken with the betrayel that i feel from what he has done. This amazing dog that i have looked at for the last 4 years and never thought he would hurt a fly and he has done this. Im heart broken with what has happened. I cant believe it. i dont know what to do.
We took the little tiny body to the spca as we were not sure what to do with it, and they said if we dont get our dog neuted unless we breed then we should have done so. and now i feel like i let her down by not doing that.
HOW DO I GET OVER THE BETRAYEL I FEEL FROM HIM. i will never ever as long as i have my bull dog will i get another dog and obviously im not getting ride of my bull dog, but i feel so betrayed by him and hurt by him. I still love him more than life itself. But what do i do now with all this emotion i feel. I really feel so gutted my baby girl is gone. I miss her so much.
My bull dog has been so Melon Colly since it happened. its strange i think he knows he did something. its so weird. its hard to see him so quite and sad.... he is greiving this whole thing. i dont know what to do.
does anyone have any advice at all for me please.
thanks so much